It's
another Thursday, right here behind my working desk, I am sitting, enjoying my
initial weeks of working life. I start thinking of many things in life,
questioning things in life, how, why, when, where, does it happen? I am still
looking for an answer that I believe when I found it, I achieved the goal in my
life. The biggest question I never stop asking is what is the purpose of my
life. Why am I doing this and that, living like all others did, is that how
life should be? I know everybody might ask the same question as I do so much of
it in this life. It is so easy to tell yourself "Darry, live your life
with purpose!".
How
can I find what is my purpose of life when I don't even know if I am living it
in a right way. The determination of right or wrong is depending on the
commonality, what people mostly do is right and what people don't do is wrong
but is it the way you decide it? Everyone in this world was born with their own
purpose, that is why everyone is created different from others. Therefore, how
could you decide if thing is right or wrong based on what others have decided?
I am disagree if you get to say things are right just because others think it
is right, there should be more reason behind it.
I
am questioning life, not because I am not grateful of this life. In fact, I
could not be more grateful that I was born so special in my way and I have to
walk through this life's path which, I believe, happened for good. The purpose
I am questioning this life is, nonetheless, seeking for the essence of this
life. It is so much important for me to decide where my life will go, where am
I heading to, what am I going to do next? After a long conversation with my mom
last night, I realized that I am no longer a kid, though I always be a son to
my mom, I have to determine this life on my own. It is me to decide and make a
call for this life. Am I living it like others or Am I wanting to make
something different? My mom clearly told me that she does not have the ability
to intervene on my decision. I shall decide it for my own.
I
am not trying to be arrogant by not wanting live my life like others or
criticizing what people commonly do, there is something inside me that
whispering and giving me the idea of asking all these questions. It is like a
voice that interrogating me, keeping me on searching the answer to those
questions. I have to go through more journey of this life so I can find the
answer. I need more lessons for me to live my life with. May be it is
different, the way I see my life, and what others see their life, but I believe
there is one similarity, the link that connecting all people. That link is
humanity. No matter how is your life different, you are still a human. On that
basis, I believe everybody is on their own track of life as I am.
